Love: Deep in the Well

Have you ever wondered if love is a real thing? Is it something us humans just use to classify a sort of strong feelings towards another being? Or is it a chemical (dopamine) induced feeling that traps us into this cage and is an emotional drag just to get out of? How can one word have so many meanings to it? That's why I enjoy the word love. In Greek, it has many different forms and it's beautiful <3. But what I question is if love is truly real. Of course I know it exists, but does it really? Or is it simply what were "supposed" to do? Love is deep. And I'm not sure I have a handle on it quite yet. 

Fear and Feels

To be truthfully honest, I'm afraid. I'm afraid of the next chapter ahead of me, of failure, of not meeting someone else to walk beside, and being so far away from my family. I always had hope that my ex would come back for me and tell me how much he's sorry and just wants to be there for me. However, I've come to the realization that sometimes the truth is hard to bare, but he's not coming back. No matter how many times my heart stops everytime the doorbell rings in hope it's him (I really wish I could just stop thinking that, but it's hard). And that's what hurts me the most. But as I move on, I'm afraid of what's next. I'm just going to just keep my chin held high and reach for hope and direction in my next chapter of life. My new goal for tomorrow is to write down positive things about myself and make a collage to hang in my dorm room of encouragements. Goodnight World. Thanks for letting me rant to you about how I'm feeling. I love you all.  

Being Happy.

As many of you know, I'm definitely a night owl and it's when I'm alone in my room, just before bed, that I get sparked with ideas. Today as I lay in bed I'm wondering to myself, what am I doing? What are ways I can better improve my own life and be happier? I'll be honest and say that lately I haven't been happy. Always frustrated, upset, sad, disappointed and I'm honestly so done feeling this way. Always counting on someone else to fill that gap for me. However, my goal for the rest of this summer is to find something that truly makes me happy in the present. People change as time go on and the things that once made me happy aren't anymore. It's time for a new day and a new me. Let's be happy today y'all (: 

My Intro

I'm going to just be completely honest and say...I have no clue how to use this blog. However, this is going to be my first post, and I just thought I would introduce myself. My name is LaNesha and I just recently graduated from High School. I've never been the type of person to call just anyone my friend, and I love to love. Speaking of love, is it even a real thing? Or is it simply just our mind being fed with the ridiculous chemical called dopamine that only seems to fool us in the end when someone doesn't love you like they once said (bitter? A Little. But only with good reason) ? I love adventures, exploring the city, star gazing with friends, or even just watching Twilight on late Friday nights. I have college coming up, and it's honestly been the one thing that seems to keep me going. I'll admit, the awk summer transition from High School to College is so strange; To hang with your High School friends only to remember the short limited amount of time you have left with them. College is going to be life changing and that's part of the reason why I created this blog: so I can share with all of you the things I face, and how my mind thinks (of course). Anyways, hopefully that was an okay intro? I hope my journey reaches to others as they, too, begin the next chapter of their own lives.